Un dia despues de la tormenta quando menos piensas sale el sol.

went to the pool party at the lakips last night. Kate and Nicole were talking about how some guy in the bacholerett was a real jerk but how the girl really liked him. Morgan got pretty upset about how that is so true. how he has known so many girls that have jerks for boyfriends and how they always go back to them. Riddle me this... why is that true!?

No hay mal que dure cien anos ni cuerpo que los resista.

Change.
I am back in GA.
I want to go live in Chicago with Heather. She really inspires me and I would have her as my friend and i wouldn't be bored or alone in adventures.
Me and Heather have a new goal! We are going to start our own business with her friend lesley. This will all be taking place April 2012! So i have to make 6,000 by April but i would like to make them by December and spend Jan-April working one Camera supplies and having fun with my family. Road trip to visit Vickie where ever she will be.
Change. Your thoughts make who you are. So I want to Change my thought to be Super Positive and Always on my New York life to be. I want to take more deep breaths when bad thoughts or sad thoughts come in.

I am shamelessly listening to Taylor Swifts Speak now CD. Im in a FUNKY mood. haha

I will be busy today and its going to be great!

just some lyrics I was listening to that i really liked

"Can you lie next to her
And give her your heart, your heart
As well as your body" -Mumford&Sons


"The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn't the ending so much as the start
The tragedy starts from the very first spark
Losing your mind for the sake of your heart" -Feist


"You were right about the stars
Each one is a setting sun" -Wilco

Fasting Facebook.

Fasting from Facebook is good thing.
It is really hard but i think i have been more productive with my time.
I have actually looked at photographs to inspire me. Its helped me to not put off working out longer than i need to. Blogging. I have gone outside more. But I get antsy. I want to call everyone to come and hang out with me and do something. But then i remember that I am not in Rexburg where people live close and where you could call anyone and they are more than willing to hang out because they don't want to be bored either. I have 2 people that live like 15 min. away. One i hang out with already but i dont want him to think I am needy and annoying so i try to only hangout with him like every other day or something like that. The other person has a friend living with him and they do all sorts or manly things and I dont want to intrude on their bro time, well that and I am not sure they want to hang out with me... Oh well.
I need a friend! All i am asking is for  just one. Someone to go with me at midnight to get a snikers bar or to come with me to walk my dog at night. Someone who will put up with my crazy ideas to not stay bored. Is that really too much to ask for?! A guy friend would be preferable because girls are crazy and I can never make good girl friends. Back to the topic of fasting from facebook. So not getting on facebook has made me have to deal with the reality that all my friends are gone! WTF!
However the good news is that Heather Smith is here for the weekend and i will be seeing her and I am super excited to see here and hang out with here! I have missed here a lot. She is in my list of girls that I trust with my life. That list is small (FYI). Chicago is just so far away!
Yesterday I went to institute. I think they gave me what I think to be the worst advice every. Asking boys out?! Ummm... If the guy were really interested he would ask me out. Why should I be the one to ask him out?! Pluse I want a guy who is confident and when a guy is confident he has the confidence to ask out a girl that he is really interested. Just saying...
I need more REAL friends not virtual ones.
Why is Georgia so far away from my Rexburg friends?!

Oh but i start working full time come Monday!!! FINALLY!

"The greatest irony of life is loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right and finding out you love someone after that person walks out from your life and sometimes you think you’re already over a person but when you see them smile at you, you’ll suddenly realize that you’re just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much you love the person. Most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love; love is always present. It’s just the one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little as we all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. Maybe that’s the reason why the heart is not always right. Most often we fall in love with the person we think we love only to discover that for them, we are just for past times, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger. Here’s a piece of advice: let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t enough and move on when things are not like before. There is someone out there who will love you even more, surely then, you will know true love."

http://www.nerdlikejazzy.com/post/4238195065/the-greatest-irony-of-life-is-loving-the-right

13 things I learned because I came out to school.

This has been the hardest semester of my life. If we are talking in "transfers" it has been the hardest 4 transfers of my life! But at the same time I can really say that I have learned a lot.
I went to Arizona with Lucy this past easter weekend. it is a 12 hour drive to Az from Salt lake. So there was a lot of time to talk and think in the car. I have been home for roughly 6 months and i can not believe how fast goes by.
6 months ago I was in St. George, Utah. My last transfer. I was companion with Hna Lloyd and I was freaking out about going home and being a "regular person." But i did what I could. I made goals and plans of how to keep the spirit in my life and how to adapt all the things that I had learned. There were so many things that i wanted to do. The bigger ones were with my family. But i forgot to take into consideration that my family has free agency. I wanted them to do all the things that i wanted them to do, it just didn't turn out that way. And I know now that I was wrong for wanting to impose my will on them. I don't think that they were bad things they were things like, fam. prayer, scripture study, Fam. Home Evening basically more time as a family.
Here is the thing i had gained such a big testimony that those things really strengthen and bless families that i wanted that for mine. But it took me a whole year and a half to gain that testimony. I can't expect my family to just say yeah ok in just a few days. All of this takes time and hard work. And example and someone to help them along the way. FHE worked out great! and family prayer was done more often! YAY!
But i got distracted and I forgot about those goals. Dang. But it is something that i really want for them so i will try to work on that when I get home.
This is just one of the things that i learned. 1.I can not make people do what I want and 2. That I get distracted very easily. I have got to learn to be concentrated on what I really want... long term not short term.
3. There are no coincidences(sp?) Everything happens for a reason. There was a purpose in my going out to school. Had I not gone to school I would not have learned that I LOVE ALTERNATIVE PROCESSES for photography. I wouldn't have known that I loved my printmaking class, teacher and classmates. I wouldn't have realized that I hate commercial photography. I wouldn't have learned how to work in a studio, a light meter, ratios, wizards, lights, gels, backgrounds. I wouldn't have 3 portfolios of photographs to show what I can do. I wouldn't have made such great friends. I would have missed out in the opportunity to experiment and learn.
4. Had i not come out to school. I would have missed out in the opportunity to develop trust in Christ. I did what I could put in the effort that I had strength to and Christ made up the rest. The Atonement.
5. I needed this experience. I needed to learn to make my own friends and I needed this time to develop relationships with the new and old friends.
6. I learned that when i fail. I mean completely fail!!!! it provides a reference of how not to do something. I need references even if they are from my personal failures. And the same thing goes for when you succeed. You need references to say hey this went well because i did so and so....
7. I learned I have a bad judgment in character... the friends that i pick to be my friends are not the best. I need vickie to help me sort out good friends.
8. I need rules when it comes to dating. (this one i am proud to say that I am working on. I have made rules now I just need to practice them)
9. I learned that I need to study more art books and people.
10. I learned that I need to be more BRAVE. Get my stuff out. Get out more, socially. take more photos. say "No" when needed.
11. I learned I need to continue on being better. I Have to work on me. Self improvement. Spiritually and in all aspects of what make me. ME. I have to continue to apply all the things that I learned on the mission.
12. I learned that I am getting back to me. hopefully a more improved better me.
13. I need to re-read PMG as a "civilian"

I love change.
I'm going home.
As much as I love school and love learning.
I can't help but feel and know that I am not supposed to be up at school for the summer semester.
Weird but this will be just as much as a learning experience. Bring it on world! I'll be brave!